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« levi » TEXT ✧ AUDIO ✧ VIDEO ✧ ACTION Levi Ackerman ✦ Attack on Titan
RESIDENCE ✦ 123 Fuck You St., in the Leave Me Alone district (tba)
GEMBOND ✦ Amethyst

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[dirtdevil]

[ neither will he.

which is something he would just come out and say, but right now he's too preoccupied watching Erwin unbutton his shirt. this sure is happening, isn't it? he's already starting to flush. fuck. ]

Uh. [ he quietly (and not at all awkwardly) clears his throat, briefly glancing to the side. ] Are we... good here?

[ in the living room, he means. is this okay? he doesn't know anything about this shit. ]

[theomachy]

[ the flush is charming, but he stills when levi clears his throat, action aborted mid-movement just in case he needs to stop.

when levi speaks though, he lets out a breathless almost-laugh. ]

You're right. We should go to the bedroom.

[dirtdevil]

[ yes. the bedroom. definitely. that is where... stuff happens. or so he's heard.

slowly, he pushes himself up and heads into their bedroom, taking a lot more care than usual not to trip on nothing because he's feeling self-conscious about how utterly clueless he is. he does his best not to look too clueless when he sits down on the edge of the bed, but he just ends up looking slightly nervous instead.

whoops. ]

[theomachy]

[ yeah, the nervousness strikes erwin a bit and he sits next to him gingerly, hand resting at his knee and the other lifting to draw his face in for a kiss. it's slow, and lingering, and a little exploratory. ]

I've got you.

[dirtdevil]

[ a significant amount of his nerves fade back into nothing, just like that. Erwin has such a calming effect on him that he would probably find it very difficult to remain tense when they're together, even in situations much more dire than this.

it's actually kind of amazing to him.

so he returns the kiss with zero hesitation, moving his own hand to rest atop the one on his knee. it's a reminder of his trust. ]

I know you do.

[theomachy]

Good. I always will.

[ he shifts just enough to drop his hand down to start gently pushing levi's shirt off one shoulder so that he can lean down and kiss the skin there as it's bared.

it's a little more bold than he has been, openly wanting instead of careful and measured, a little more heated.

they both want this, and if they don't start they never will. he's trusting levi to tell him to stop if he needs it, if only because he knows that levi knows that's what erwin wants. ]

[dirtdevil]

[ he can sense a kind of shift in Erwin's actions—he's never done this before, but even though they've held off on this kind of intimacy until now, they've been intimate emotionally for a long time. much longer than they've been a couple, really. so feeling a change from the cautious and methodical way Erwin had been handling him to something less controlled is relatively easy for him.

it stirs something similar in him, too; something he's never felt with anyone else, and never will. something needy in the same way Erwin is behaving now. it's a little hard to focus, but eventually his fingers find Erwin's shirt as well. he fumbles a bit unbuttoning it, but when he finally finishes, he pushes it back off his shoulders, and he's suddenly struck with a deep need to be as close to him as humanly possible.

he's in no rush, but it still kinda feels like he needs skin-on-skin contact to live right now. strange. ]

[theomachy]

[ it's a subtle shift to be sure, but naturally one that levi would notice. no one else gets to see him like this, after all.

he's emboldened by levi working at his shirt, dragging kisses along his shoulder and back toward his throat, attentive and wanting. he shifts to allow the shirt to drop off his shoulders and down his back, and levi will get to see his new arm for the first time. it looks real just like it moves real and feels real but there is a seam where it connects with the remains of his own arm. it's a neat job, clean, but it still looks like what it is: an artificial arm grafted onto a stump.

erwin doubts levi will care, but he lifts his head to kiss him firmly anyway, to distract him as he draws him up closer against his chest. ]

[dirtdevil]

[ it comes at no surprise to him that Erwin doesn't want to call any attention to his arm. to be honest, Levi doesn't like to think about it too much, either—it's a terrifying reminder that he almost lost him, and that he still could.

it's not quite the mental state he wants to be in right now.

so he pushes it into the back of his head just like he's already done a thousand times since it happened, instead vowing to himself to show Erwin how much it means to him that he is still here. it might take him awhile to figure out how best to do that, but he's more than willing to learn.

he melts into the embrace when Erwin pulls him closer, arms wrapping around him tightly like he's afraid this is just a dream and he'll wake up anytime now. he still has absolutely no idea what he's doing, but Erwin is so warm. can they just stay close like this for the rest of his life? that would be amazing. ]

[theomachy]

[ it's good to not focus on it. at least for now. they're both alive, and they could both die any day at home but they're not home right now, they're here, and the odds of one of them dying is very low.

even that isn't an appropriate line of thought for the moment they're in so let's not dwell on that.

his hand splays at the small of levi's back as he holds onto him, and he only breaks the kiss to mouth a couple of them along levi's jaw, testing as he has been. a part of him wants to slip his hand lower, to hoist levi up a little more by the ass, but that's probably not the best tactic right now so he digs the tips of his fingers into his back, not painfully but grounding. ]

[dirtdevil]

( and then they fell asleep. THE END )